After getting halfway through "Parachute", I jumped headlong into a rabbit hole leading to endless possibilities...most important of them all, is the rediscovery of self; re-actualization of redeeming qualities, skills, & essential awesomeness of ME. It's so easy to pick on the negative - of anything- much less yourself. So getting to a point where I was able to realize that mine was not the first mistake to be made, nor will it be the last, and that I possess unique characteristics that no one else has, is a hard lesson to learn and accept. Not only because I constantly criticize myself against my peers, but because I have a firm belief that self evaluation is an important part of redefining processes & thoughts for efficiency & quality.
Here is what, in my belief, was my fatal flaw (amongst smaller, minute flaws): I was living haphazardly; with no definite plan that mapped out short term goals versus long term goals, & carve them in stone. Sure, you can PLAN on getting a hair cut, or AIM to talk to that really cute guy in accounting, but there is a definite, albeit fine & complex, difference between developing/ implementing, & keeping in mind the particular down to the 't'. The real work comes when you have the finer details mapped out, & can effectively compile them into a coherent, more efficient, process.
So we come to a fork in the road, where structure, the unknown of the universe & the makings of the human mind all converge: where do you go from there? At this moment, having a beer at my favorite after work dive, my mind wanders to the moments of despair that I all too often frequent. But I am redeemed by my moments of clarity, as I highly doubt that any one on this earth is consistent to the point of perfect clarity... Any one see the movie Limitless? And if you did, was it somehow reminiscent of university students on speed or aderrhol? Because that's how it came off to me... Suddenly, with the help of one little pill (bc that's all the we need today to solve life's problems, right?) He was catapulted into the throws of perfect, focus, thought...so focused that he thrust his mind into the future & skipped any superfluous activity...
WHOOOA...
So I will sign off with that...opinions are more than welcome (;
